Yesterday, I went to Six Flags with a friend of mine. We'd been on many rides, roller coasters, etc., and were generally having a great time. And then I went to ride the Superman ride. I walked past the "trial" chair at the beginning...not even thinking. I waited in line about 30 minutes. I got on the ride, and went to buckle my seatbelt.
........which wasn't even close to buckling.
I needed about 5 more inches to buckle that belt. Granted, it was a small belt. I hadn't had any trouble buckling anything else all night. But I was humiliated. I had to get off the ride...walk in front of all those people. It was the worst feeling I think I've ever had.
Which in turn has definitely forced a new leaf to be turned. I will NEVER ever feel like that again. I will never ever have my weight be factor in me not doing something or doing something.
And next summer, I will ride Superman. :)
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Day 1 - reboot
Woke up at 6:45 and walked for 30 minutes. Ate a bowl of special K for breakfast. I am exhausted though. Hoping that early morning workouts will lead to earlier bedtimes. I read in bed until 2 am Usually I'm out after 15 minutes of reading...don't know where this insomnia comes from but it's definitely not welcome.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Yesterday's Stats
Weight: 270 lb (sigh...where did this come from??)
Calories: 1359
Fat g: 55 (a little high but most of that was from the shrimp I ate at dinner.)
Exercise: walked back and forth to take Kid 1 to school for camp. 0.2 miles each way, one way up a pretty steep hill.
Goal: Try to work on more exercise and lowering the calories with more fruits/veggies.
Calories: 1359
Fat g: 55 (a little high but most of that was from the shrimp I ate at dinner.)
Exercise: walked back and forth to take Kid 1 to school for camp. 0.2 miles each way, one way up a pretty steep hill.
Goal: Try to work on more exercise and lowering the calories with more fruits/veggies.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
C25K - Day 1
Day 1: 5 min warm-up, alternate 60 seconds jogging (5.0) and 90 second walking (2.8 - 3.0) up until 20 minutes.
Results: Well that 60 seconds got harder and harder until I couldn't do the last 60 second run, so I walked it. I did the full 20 minutes though, and was successful at completing a mile. 20 minute mile, pathetic, I know, but I did it.
Tomorrow will be a day off from running, so I think I'll either do Zumba Wii or Just Dance.
I also lifted weights while watching the Biggest Loser. Appropriate, eh?
Results: Well that 60 seconds got harder and harder until I couldn't do the last 60 second run, so I walked it. I did the full 20 minutes though, and was successful at completing a mile. 20 minute mile, pathetic, I know, but I did it.
Tomorrow will be a day off from running, so I think I'll either do Zumba Wii or Just Dance.
I also lifted weights while watching the Biggest Loser. Appropriate, eh?
Day 1: January 17, 2011
Things nobody told me growing up:
1) one cookie/brownie/cake is never just one.
2) fruit is not an add-on to a meal. It's not optional.
3) The weight you gain when you're 14, 18, 22 may go on easy, but it doesn't come off easy at 31.
I am beginning today with what I hope will be my new body.
I am not a person who is unhappy necessarily with myself. I am athletic and energetic and vibrant. I do the things I want to do and I enjoy my life. Sure there are body image issues (who doesn't have 'em?) but I'm married and love my children and have great friends.
But I'm fat.
Yes, I said it. That dreaded "f" word. The word that even shows like 'Heavy' and "Biggest Loser" seem to avoid. Excess weight, high BMI, even obese, but never fat. For example, I watched the premiere of "Heavy" last night and was just amazed at how this man could barely even walk to his car without almost dying, wheezing like a freight train just from walking around the ranch they have, but no one told him he was fat. They all stressed that he needed to lose weight, but come on! Everyone is thinking it, even the guy himself. We don't tiptoe around drug addicts and say they are seriously judgement-challenged.
Honestly I am tired of the news all the time, stressing all these new studies about scientists and how they discovered this and that, all related to why and how people gain weight. I can tell you when I gained my weight, and how. I went to college. Each meal, I had a regular soda, and I drank them in my room too. After every meal, I ate a bowl of ice cream. Just 1 a day, but that's a few hundred calories every week that added up to a few pounds a month. I wasn't small ti begin with, but fit for sure. I finished college above 200 lbs by a bit.
Then my first year of marriage and my first year of teaching, where we ate crap all the time and never had time or energy to work out. By the time I got pregnant with my daughter, I was about 220 lbs. With my son, I was 240.
And there I've hovered for 3 years. 248 lbs today. 248
248
What a disgusting number. I weigh more than professional football players.
So, it's going to change, starting today.
I am starting slow with some basic goals. I know that this road will be long, and hard, and difficult. I also know that all the other times I've set out to do it, I was derailed because I had a lack of results. So, I am thinking that my results must be different. I am setting non-weight related goals so I can say I accomplished *something.*
3 goals for January/Feb:
1) Begin the Couch-to-5k program (every other day run/walk combo.)
2) Eat a fruit or veggie with every single meal
3) Stay under allotted Weight Watchers Points each week.
Nobody told me...to do this. Because nobody wants to tell me I'm fat. But I know what the truth is, and I aim to change it.
1) one cookie/brownie/cake is never just one.
2) fruit is not an add-on to a meal. It's not optional.
3) The weight you gain when you're 14, 18, 22 may go on easy, but it doesn't come off easy at 31.
I am beginning today with what I hope will be my new body.
I am not a person who is unhappy necessarily with myself. I am athletic and energetic and vibrant. I do the things I want to do and I enjoy my life. Sure there are body image issues (who doesn't have 'em?) but I'm married and love my children and have great friends.
But I'm fat.
Yes, I said it. That dreaded "f" word. The word that even shows like 'Heavy' and "Biggest Loser" seem to avoid. Excess weight, high BMI, even obese, but never fat. For example, I watched the premiere of "Heavy" last night and was just amazed at how this man could barely even walk to his car without almost dying, wheezing like a freight train just from walking around the ranch they have, but no one told him he was fat. They all stressed that he needed to lose weight, but come on! Everyone is thinking it, even the guy himself. We don't tiptoe around drug addicts and say they are seriously judgement-challenged.
Honestly I am tired of the news all the time, stressing all these new studies about scientists and how they discovered this and that, all related to why and how people gain weight. I can tell you when I gained my weight, and how. I went to college. Each meal, I had a regular soda, and I drank them in my room too. After every meal, I ate a bowl of ice cream. Just 1 a day, but that's a few hundred calories every week that added up to a few pounds a month. I wasn't small ti begin with, but fit for sure. I finished college above 200 lbs by a bit.
Then my first year of marriage and my first year of teaching, where we ate crap all the time and never had time or energy to work out. By the time I got pregnant with my daughter, I was about 220 lbs. With my son, I was 240.
And there I've hovered for 3 years. 248 lbs today. 248
248
What a disgusting number. I weigh more than professional football players.
So, it's going to change, starting today.
I am starting slow with some basic goals. I know that this road will be long, and hard, and difficult. I also know that all the other times I've set out to do it, I was derailed because I had a lack of results. So, I am thinking that my results must be different. I am setting non-weight related goals so I can say I accomplished *something.*
3 goals for January/Feb:
1) Begin the Couch-to-5k program (every other day run/walk combo.)
2) Eat a fruit or veggie with every single meal
3) Stay under allotted Weight Watchers Points each week.
Nobody told me...to do this. Because nobody wants to tell me I'm fat. But I know what the truth is, and I aim to change it.
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